Have you ever taken time to reflect on life? Have you ever given yourself the chance to analyse what's going on, how you feel about it and what you're going to do about it? I did...
In short: Wow, my life is pretty awesome right now!
The long(er) version: Well, you know how much I love a good, long blog post ;)
I heard this recently: "God gave us two gifts: a choice to have a good life and a chance to make it the best". Life is by no means easy, or perfect, for anyone! If you think someone else's life is perfect - they're either very good at hiding their cracks or you aren't looking for them. It's called "the rollercoaster of life" for a reason. I've had a fair share of ups and downs to say the least!
I'm not here to dwell on the crap things that have happened in life, what's the point? There's times I wish they hadn't happened, sure! But reliving them in my head doesn't change them or make them go away. As most of you will know, losing my Dad was one of the sh*ttest things to happen to me and my family. We were all so heartbroken, and still to this day I cannot get my head around some aspects of it. But before he died, my father said to me (and I quote): "If I have to go, don't let it ruin your life. I will always be in your heart." And he was so right, he is with me every day, watching over me and my family. And, as a family, we still look for the positives, we reminisce the good times and we praise God for the times we had with him before he had to leave us.
Reflection is such a thought provoking thing; I can let life pass by without even taking time to thank God for what I have. I've been completing a "Thankful Year" book - writing down one thing I am thankful for, every day! And it has made me appreciate things so much! Especially the small things in life, like a walk in the park with my mum, or my husband bringing me breakfast in bed. It's by filling in my yearbook that I have realised how truly blessed and lucky I am. It's taken a lot of trials and tribulations, heartbreak, sadness, tears, laughs, smiles and prayer - but I am in the best place, mentally and emotionally (and some ways, physically!), than I have been in a long time.
Life is full of people making false promises and building you up ready to knock you down when you least except it! But there's those few little treasures, like precious gemstones, that need to recognised for being the rocks that you need in life!
I can be a very emotional person at times; needing a lot of reassurance and TLC from both family and friends. Sometimes, I put too much trust in people and I'm totally let down by them. Others, I don't put enough trust in them even though I know they only want the best for me. It's only now that I have been able to allow myself to let go of the people who hinder me, and pull close those who I know love and care for me. I always joke with Phil and my Mum about how I don't have any friends and that I am a loner (my brother would probably agree to be fair!), but it is not true. I cherish the few very close friends I have because they have been there for me through every rollercoaster I've been on. They are the ones who keep me grounded! They love me for me and, even if I don't see them for a few weeks, I know they're only a text or call away.
Where would I be without my husband, my mum and my brother? Well, not a fully functioning human being I can tell you that! I spend the most precious time with them and they are the people who have kept me on my feet my entire life! I cannot thank God enough for blessing me with the most amazing family ever! The past year has been an eye opener for both me & Phil, but it's amazing to see how perfect and on track our life is now! He's incredible. I'm so proud of everything he has achieved, especially recently securing his dream job! He can be a messy thing, have selective hearing, or be an anti-social git (just like my own Dad, hey mum?) - but I still wouldn't change him for the world!
So, the future looks bright! And full of dirty nappies too! The first major thing that will be happening in the not to distant future is the arrival of our Little Munchkin! I am so super excited to be a mummy! Feeling the baby kick and dance around in my belly is the most miraculous and surreal experience ever! I have loved being pregnant (minus the ailments :P) but we cannot wait for Bump to arrive!
What lies ahead, after Baby? Who knows! Only God! But, he's been so incredibly gracious to me so far that I bet it will be incredible. He only has plans to prosper us; to give us a hope & a future! (Jeremiah 29:11)
Well, it's getting to that time of year... My next blog will probably be to introduce you to Baby Hughes! I will admit, I am full of mixed emotions right now but I know every second will be totally worth it when our little creation is cuddled into our arms & safe! But for now? We wait...